dear tess- i miss you.
i know its my fault that you left. i messed up again, and i know youve heard this a thousand times before, but hear me out alright?
i had to clear my head. and that week spent in london with liquor instead of with you was torture. i broke my phone against the wall.
and i cant believe you're still here. you stayed.
why?
i just hope you wont figure out why because once you do i know you'll be gone. the towel still wet from the last shower you took. the vanilla still fresh in the bathroom. the toothbrush still on the counter becuase you'll forget it. i know you will.
and every touch i get past today is a bonus, because once today becomes tomorrow ill just have memories.
and memories wont last forever, but theyll get me through tomorrow.
tess- youve got to know im sorry. the way it all started isnt how i wanted it to. and i cant erase it or change it now but i can say im sorry. and i can love you the rest of my life becuase thats what ive been doing since that day.
and ill always crave you in the most innocent ways. and ill always want to wake up to your annoying alarm clock becuase that means youre still here with me. and ill want to fall asleep next to you, and as i crawl into bed youll wrap you arms around me like you do every night and ill love you all over again. and ill wish for you to scream at me when i leave my jeans on the floor, just so i can see the way you scrunch your nose when youre upset. and ill always want you, tess. nothing will change it. theres no one else but you.
i love you.
always
harry x.
