Monday, May 14, 2018

to you.

the past week has been harder than usual
maybe because I feel like you would be disappointed in my decisions
everyone has bad habits but why do I feel like mine are harder to break than others

I truly think about you way too much for my own good
im not even sure if I've met you
yet you haunt my every thought
my heart is desperate to find you while my brain just wants to have a good time
chill out, brain says, he'll come around eventually.
but my heart has her binoculars out, still hoping for you
I don't want to say im waiting around for you to show up but then I would be lying
how do you even begin to search for someone you haven't recognized yet?
or for something you've never actually felt before?
im still not sure


Sunday, May 6, 2018

harry styles

I finally came to the realization today that I am a hard core romantic
like I love love
I am in love with writing about love
and reading about love
reading definitions of what love is
how people fall in love
hearing about what people love
and why they love what they love
listening to music about love
hearing music I love
hearing voices of people I love


have I ever fallen in love? I don't think so...
my mom told me today that once I got a man in my life I would love harry styles less
my first thought was how is that possible?
I guess I won't know until I actually love somebody