Friday, April 27, 2018

in my blood. shawn mendes

don't scratch your head. don't do it.
cmon, you can't afford to do it again. you know what happens when you scratch. it just itches more and more and more and then it looks like you have dandruff all over yourself. 

but it feels so good once I scratch. and then it goes away for awhile. cmon just one scratch 

NO. you cannot scratch your head again. you got away with it yesterday but today is a new day and you can go one day without scratching your freaking head again. 

....okay, I can do one day....
....ugh but seriously it tingles SO BAD. JUST ONE SCRATCH 

NO. DONT DO IT TESSA. NO SCRATCHING. YOU CAN DO THIS.

okay okay I can do this.........................NO I NEED TO SCRATCH IT. THIS WILL BE MY LAST ONE I PROMISE

YOU SAID THAT THE LAST TIME YOU SCRATCHED YOUR HEAD YESTERDAY. NO MORE LYING TO YOURSELF

pleeassee.....I swear this is it. ill use special shampoo from now on and it'll help! cmon I can't just up and quit. I need to back off little by little....so I can just scratch my head a little less each day. 

YOU NEED TO STOP NOW. NO MORE LIES. YOUVE QUIT BEFORE AND YOU CAN DO IT AGAIN. NO. MORE. SCRATCHING. PERIOD. 

{scratches my head}





Friday, April 20, 2018

Let Me. ZAYN

he talks more than other people I've met
I asked him a question and his lips took off running
most people I know don't do that.

we bonded over washington and music.
he understands music like I do, thats one thing I know
he asked me "you know how theres that one album an artist puts together for them, and its solely about them and what they've experienced"
and I knew exactly what he was talking about

he likes the 1975
nope he doesn't like my band but thats okay
he likes big cities too
im glad he does

he told me theres more girls than guys working with us over the summer
he made that face
I just laughed