How To Save A Life. The Fray

books can change lives.

literally. ive read bunches of em since elementary school. and i always loved to read.
unless someone forced me to. then i hated it. i don't know what i would've done without sparks notes. it saved my English 10H grade more times than my charger saved my phones dying battery.
anyways.
i came across this one book and i loved it. i read that book possibly ten times. i loved it so much it scared me. that book taught me so many things.
for one. we cannot possibly know anything about anybody's  lives.
you may think you know your best friend's crush or their families names or where theyve lived or even their deepest darkest secrets. but you still dont know them.

you dont know them at all.

and the only person who will ever be the closest at winning that race is their eternal lover. whom you won't meet for another year or possibly ten.
you might never meet their lover.
and i cant wait to find that person in my life.



secondly. you can't judge.
 anybody. or even yourself really.
you might walk down the city streets and see a couple. one being a cute little girl of 5' 3'' blonde and petite. the other being a 6'5'' guy with tattoos scrawled all the way down his shoulder.
hair touching his neck.
lip ring.
rough eyes and calloused hands.
you may think they are wrong for each other. they see things that no one else sees.
they see sparks. they see scars. pains. joys. light. acceptance.

there is nothing greater in this world than to be finally accepted by somebody you love.

to truly accept somebody is to know the "plain them" so well that youd call them even when they say not to. youd rather let your phone die while talking to them. well not really but i would.
i would talk to them until my voice was raw and my battery was screaming at my stupidity.




and you will fight.
you will fight everything from that eternal lover to your parents to your siblings to your dog.
youll fight about the stupidest stuff like who lost the remote, who bought the one ply toilet paper, who loves the other more, whos laugh is the most obnoxious, and where your missing sock went.
youll fight over who pays which bill. what brand of paint youre going to use.

but you know what?? id fight my eternal lover every day.

because that means i care. im accepted enough by you that i want you to hear my opinion on where the couch should go.

and sometimes youll have to leave. youll get so furiously upset that youll need to go.
somewhere. but just for a little while.
maybe the park. a drive. shopping. a pub.
who knows where thatll be. but they will know you will always return.

ill know you will always return.

because when you leave it means youd rather keep it elsewhere than show it to me.
and ill appreciate that. i wont even be mad when you return.

and love. love so much that it kills you at the same time. give away so much of it that you drowned. but theyll return that love. and itll save you both.

 

this book is one of my favorite books of all time. and i will never forget its story.
books can change lives.
and this one changed mine.