hey its me. tess.

 you know when i first signed up for this class i knew i would have to do this

"reveal" myself.

i had so many good reviews from my friends that this was the class my high school transcript couldn't miss. but i didn't know that this would probably be the one class that i will miss. oh its not over yet thank the heavens. but ill still continue to write because of you.

every comment makes my heart leap. every new blog post gets my blood pumping. all because of you. you're amazing thoughts. detailed descriptions. countless ideas. and the ability to keep an open mind.

here goes nothing.

i wasnt born here. i grew up in many places.
half my life ive spent outside the bubble. and i miss it.

i hated it here. the first year was the hardest.
and to be honest some days i still hate it here. but im getting over it. 

i am the oldest. and being the oldest is hard. no lie.

the thing i am most complimented on is my laugh. and its one of the only things i actually adore about myself. besides my eyes. i like those too. and my hair on some occasions.

i seem outgoing, and i try to be, but its scary for me. they say that whatever you want in a spouse you need in yourself, so im trying it out. i hope it works.

i started dancing in seventh grade. it keeps me sane.

my close friends may think that i am always laughing, but im not. only around them. to keep the thoughts at bay while away from home.

i decorate cakes for a living. so hmu.

i am probably more serious than i think i am, on the inside at least. 

ive always wanted to wear a huge black floppy hat, but i dont want to seem too white girl on the outside. i dont want to be seen as fake.

my biggest problem is trust. i have a hard time trusting other people besides myself. especially guys. im sorry if i become closed off. i dont mean to. if you want to- keep trying. i know ill open up eventually.

im not as nervous as i think i would be about this.

T e s s a  T o d d.