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i hate feeling like this. this gnawing feeling
it always gets me and i dont know why i let it
but i do.

i decided to walk. somewhere, anywhere instead of just staying here.
the cold numbed my arms and it worked.
but just for a bit. because it always comes back.
it always comes back and i dont know why i let it
but i do.

i hate feeling alone.

being outside worked. but only for a bit because it always comes back, this feeling.
you'd think that this feeling of being by yourself would lessen
but the cold only numbs for a bit. the feeling doesnt feel anymore
it always comes back and i hate it.