mustaches

he never sleeps i swear
and i wish i could do that
i wish i could talk to the stars all night like he does

i told him 'straight into your arms' reminded me of him

last night we went to the music store and he sang it to me 

do 'just friends' do those kinds of things? im not sure

he sings in the car like i do 

i probably ask him way too many questions but i just wanna know whats going on inside that head of his 

he just invited me to see him at 11:20pm and i told him i was writing right now.....but why do i feel bad for saying no??

another poem about a boy

he is way too nice
like honestly he is
we work together every day and im sure he's tired of seeing my face
I know I am.....well actually i don't know yet
you've heard of the five love languages before right?
service and quality time. those are my top two.
so when you spend the entire day with the same person and he offers to help you with everything I can't quite help but think that its possible to fall for this guy
even if he's just trying to be nice and wants to help me sweep the step

but a voice in my head is so against it
I can't even look at him half the time because I know if I do then something will happen
and I don't want anything to happen
I know in reality looks aren't supposed to matter but
they do to a degree right?

its about him again

I can't even remember why I was mad at him

when I saw him all my angry thoughts disappeared

it had been so long since I saw him

we laughed the entire time

it was a fabulous feeling

I looked at him and I remembered him

his personality was shining

and I loved it

a few days ago I messaged him
he didn't respond until 24hrs later
I thought he had changed...

to you.

the past week has been harder than usual
maybe because I feel like you would be disappointed in my decisions
everyone has bad habits but why do I feel like mine are harder to break than others

I truly think about you way too much for my own good
im not even sure if I've met you
yet you haunt my every thought
my heart is desperate to find you while my brain just wants to have a good time
chill out, brain says, he'll come around eventually.
but my heart has her binoculars out, still hoping for you
I don't want to say im waiting around for you to show up but then I would be lying
how do you even begin to search for someone you haven't recognized yet?
or for something you've never actually felt before?
im still not sure

harry styles

I finally came to the realization today that I am a hard core romantic

like I love love

I am in love with writing about love

and reading about love

reading definitions of what love is

how people fall in love

hearing about what people love

and why they love what they love

listening to music about love

hearing music I love

hearing voices of people I love

have I ever fallen in love? I don't think so...

my mom told me today that once I got a man in my life I would love harry styles less

my first thought was how is that possible?

I guess I won't know until I actually love somebody

in my blood. shawn mendes

don't scratch your head. don't do it.

cmon, you can't afford to do it again. you know what happens when you scratch. it just itches more and more and more and then it looks like you have dandruff all over yourself. 

but it feels so good once I scratch. and then it goes away for awhile. cmon just one scratch 

NO. you cannot scratch your head again. you got away with it yesterday but today is a new day and you can go one day without scratching your freaking head again. 

....okay, I can do one day....

....ugh but seriously it tingles SO BAD. JUST ONE SCRATCH 

NO. DONT DO IT TESSA. NO SCRATCHING. YOU CAN DO THIS.

okay okay I can do this.........................NO I NEED TO SCRATCH IT. THIS WILL BE MY LAST ONE I PROMISE

YOU SAID THAT THE LAST TIME YOU SCRATCHED YOUR HEAD YESTERDAY. NO MORE LYING TO YOURSELF

pleeassee.....I swear this is it. ill use special shampoo from now on and it'll help! cmon I can't just up and quit. I need to back off little by little....so I can just scratch my head a little less each day. 

YOU NEED TO STOP NOW. NO MORE LIES. YOUVE QUIT BEFORE AND YOU CAN DO IT AGAIN. NO. MORE. SCRATCHING. PERIOD. 

{scratches my head}

Let Me. ZAYN

he talks more than other people I've met
I asked him a question and his lips took off running
most people I know don't do that.

we bonded over washington and music.
he understands music like I do, thats one thing I know
he asked me "you know how theres that one album an artist puts together for them, and its solely about them and what they've experienced"
and I knew exactly what he was talking about

he likes the 1975
nope he doesn't like my band but thats okay
he likes big cities too
im glad he does

he told me theres more girls than guys working with us over the summer
he made that face
I just laughed